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Sunday, 28 June 2009
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142 Days left! woo hoo
I'm two days from being exactly halfway through the pregnancy. I'm already getting this yucky swelling in my ankles and legs. Hopefully it won't get too bad as I get closer to my due date.I'm very happy to say that Chex cereal went gluten free (except for the wheat Chex). They previously used barley malt in their cereals and I can't have that. Now they offer gluten-free rice chex, corn chex, cinnamon chex, honey nut chex and chocolate chex! The chocolate is a bit too sweet for me, but the rest are good. It's quite nice to be able to buy a gluten-free cereal without breaking the bank!Betty Crocker is coming out with gluten-free cake, cookie and brownie mixes soon. I haven't seen them in stores yet, but I heard they are out this month. Even non-Celiac people enjoyed them.While shopping a few weeks ago, I noticed that Thai Kitchen offers some gluten free options. Their Thai Yellow Curry is pretty cheap at Shaw's grocery store up here in MA and it makes a lot! There's also some products from Tasty Bite that list if they are vegan, vegetarian, gluten free, or contain allergens. I used their 'Good Korma' simmer sauce and it was quite good.Last night we had corn on the cob with dinner. It was really good. I'd like to find a more local place to buy vegetables, but the stands tend to be only open when I have to work!
Saturday, 27 June 2009
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143 Days To Go
The baby is kicking more often now and he is stronger too.I have childbirth fears that are really bugging me. It's not the fear of childbirth itself, but instead a fear of not being in control of what happens. I do not want a c-section and I do not want the epidural, pictocin and an episiotomy.A lot of women have drugs and c-sections for birth, not realizing that they do more harm than good. When a woman requests a c-section or their doctor schedules one for conveinance, the woman's chance of dying from the procedure itself is nearly three times that of nonsurgical birth! Plus it's not a simple cut, remove the baby and sew up procedure, there's a lot of steps involved in a c-section. It's major surgery!A c-section is also a risk for the baby. Dangers of accidental fetal laceration (2% of the time). Respiratory distress, which is a major cause of neonatal mortality. Plus there is accidental prematurity. Ultrasounds are not always perfect and can show the baby is weeks older than it actually is. My ultrasounds are never accurate. I actually know the date of conception and one of them showed me getting pregnant at a time when I hadn't had sex in over two weeks! :)When the baby is ready for birth, his lungs release a hormone that tells the woman's body to go into labor. Waiting for labor to occur naturally is so necessary! Other hormones are released to make the woman's body ready to deliver the child. It's less painful when things are done naturally and not forced!More women die due to childbirth and complications than is recorded here in the US. Most states don't even require it to be mentioned on death certificates! Our country is pretty high on the list of maternal deaths too. Americans pat themselves on the back and think this place is so much better than other countries, but seriously, the healthcare and women's birth rights are screwed up. What's worse? Most don't have a clue.I'll get over these fears, at least I hope so. I wish I had more time to talk to my doctor or could just change to a midwife. I'd feel safer with a midwife instead of a doctor. At least the midwife has attended labor *and* birth of children.
Thursday, 18 June 2009
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152 Days To Go
Today I started crying on the way home. A long day at work with my slacker co-worker made me feel stressed again (this is becoming a habit). I don't know what brought the thoughts to my mind but suddenly I felt like a horrible person, bringing a child into this screwed up world where people abuse, torture and kill cats and kittens. Where people starve their horses and send them to the killers in Canada and Mexico for slaughter. A place where people beat their dogs and drown puppies. This world pretty much sucks. Kids are abused and abandoned. People are racist and mean and they inflict a lot of pain on others.
I feel so useless sometimes. I wish I could save all the abused and unwanted animals and children and know I can't. I wish I could raise my child in a decent world and prevent him from experiencing any harm and/or pain. But I know I can't do that either.My older son didn't realize there was a difference in color, I never taught him about race. I never thought about it and there never was a reason to do so. He always thought people had different color skin just like they had different color hair. Then one day when he was in daycare after school, another child said some racist things to my son, which obviously confused him. It broke my heart when he came home and asked me why people had problems with the color of other people's skin. I explained it to him and also let him know that disliking someone because of their color and/or race is not acceptable. And it isn't. It's like hating all people with gray hair. It's just stupid and pointless.
Wednesday, 17 June 2009
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37 and pregnant
After 15 weeks of rough all day long morning sickness and extreme exhaustion, I'm starting to feel human again. Now I only get exhausted after getting ready for work and then again after making dinner. My ankles are swollen, my diabetes is misbehaving (I'm on insulin now) and this round ligament pain is new to me. It didn't happen the first time around ages ago when I was 21!
So now I'm 18 weeks and 1 day pregnant. I'm showing and the baby is kicking a lot now. I'm considered high risk because I'm so old and have diabetes, so I see the doctors a lot. My next ultrasound is in July, so I'll hopefully have an updated picture of the baby. It's a boy. We still haven't figured out a name for him yet, though have several picked out to choose from.
I'm pretty excited, I'll be staying home during the day with him and will get to avoid the horrors of childcare centers and can breastfeed and be with him a lot. I'll have a part time job a couple nights and weekends, hopefully something at a book store or something simple like stocking shelves at the grocery store.
I'm also scared. He eventually has to come out. I fear c-sections, which are done a lot. I fear not being in control, hospitals like to do it their way. I'm working on a birth plan (no drugs unless I ask, ability to move/walk during labor, etc.) and hope I can get to use it. Pregnant women have rights and they don't know about them. They let the hospitals and doctors deal with labor in ways that are convenient to them, but not helpful and safe for the mother and child. Being stuck in a bed on your back and pumped full of drugs is NOT the way to do it. I'd definitely be doing a home labor with a midwife if I weren't such a high risk pregnancy.
Oh, and for my first birth the drugs didn't work. So I know I can do it without them. I just don't want to be flat on my back for 22 hours again! The baby doesn't come out so easy that way.
Here he is at 13 weeks:
I'm educating myself on childbirth and really recommend that other pregnant women do the same.
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The Business of Being Born
By Patricia Burkhardt, Tina Cassidy, Abby Epstein, Ina May Gaskin, Ricki Lake
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Monday, 16 March 2009
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I am not happy with this person.
My co-worker needs to understand that he needs to keep his hands off of me. No more shoulder rubs and no more coming up behind me and violently shaking the back of my chair! Just because he is gay and married to a man DOES NOT give him a free pass to touch me. I gave him a warning this morning. He wasn't here even 5 minutes and he was already at my desk, shaking the back of my chair again.
Hopefully he realizes that he is one shake away from losing an arm.
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